So if love is the best thing in the world, then why do we fear it the most?

Unfortunately power is the opposite to love; it is the struggle for power which causes atrocities we see and hear all around us, only when we learn to live and love unconditionally, will the world become a safer place.

But to reach ultimate happiness we need to experience the opposite of this feeling. The opposite being suffering. One can not come into seeing without the other. So I urge you to walk your fearless dreams, to create momentum, to operate in a state of awareness.

The First, The Last and The Only.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - neither are you, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you two think alike, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she make you happy, tell her when she makes you made, and miss her when she’s not around (:

Love hurts. Boys lies. Friends Cry. People Die. Parents yell.You always try. You’re never good enough and you don’t know why.

die - hard - tryinggg

When you constantly can’t stop thinking of him. When you wait for him to go online, or when you wait for a phone call or when you wait for a text. When you see something and it reminds you of him. When you talk about him to your friends, a lot. When you start to read over messages, saved conversations or you replay moments of your life with him in your head. When you realize that when you’re out, you look around to see if you “accidentally” bump into him. When you hope to talk late that night again, like you two would used to. When you realize your friends get sick of you talking about him. When you want to hug him again, or kiss him, or just be with him. When you listen to songs and you think “This was our song.” When you go somewhere and you reminisce on what happened there with him. When you think of him before you go to sleep. That’s when you know you miss him.”

A fake smile is something that I’ve been wearing for as long as I can remember. Hidden anger and loathe towards some of my peers and family members is something that will always be a part of me. I laugh to hide my hurt, I gossip because i care and i’m so laid back because whenever I try, I never succeed.

You left without a sound :(

khai , i hope you’re reading this, because honestly, I don’t exactly have the words to explain how I really feel, but I miss you. I don’t know how we got to this point, but I noticed that everything was falling apart. I miss how we used to talk almost everyday, and I miss how you constantly made me laugh. Yes, I’m mad at you for the fact that you didn’t try to work things out to save our friendship, but after everything that has happened, I can’t help but miss you. You’re an asshole for the way you left things. I cried myself to sleep because I was afraid of losing you, but then suddenly I realized I had already lost you. If you didn’t notice, you tore me into pieces. You didn’t know what I went through knowing that I was going to lose you as a friend. I tried talking to you, wanting to work things out, but you cut me out. Although I knew you didn’t want to talk to me, I still wanted to talk to you. I sent you several messages, but you never replied back. I cared about you, but I guess you didn’t feel the same way

Dear Parent's ,

You know what I hate the most about you ? How you always see the worst in everything I do . You never seem to appreciate any of my accomplishments however you always seem to manage pointing out all my flaws. Why can’t you be proud of me for once ? I try so hard, but you’re always disappointed. I hate it :(

xoxo ; fie .

Where would I be without THEM ? ♥

I still can’t believe yesterday was my last and final day at SMK ASUUNTA. It has been an utterly amazing year with all you girls, and I thank you all for the memorable moments you have shared with me; the PMR DAYS, gossiping about THE STUPID GENG , singing during classes, eating in class, dancing, shouting and our ridiculous inside jokes. And I know one thing for sure, is that I can trust you all with anything I do and say and I have built such a fantastic relationship with each and every one of you. My life has changed exceptionally with each of your individual characteristics, and I couldn’t ask for any better year level. Thanks BABY! <3

xoxo ; fie.

Mistakes are part of being human (:

And whether you agree with this or not, we all know that in some point in our lives, we’ll look back at the mistakes we’ve made and be grateful of them, for letting us learn from them, even though it may of been the hard way.

I’m too scared to let people in

Not through my front door, but to actually know me. I prefer to listen to others than talk about myself. Perhaps I don’t really know what to say, but I know that I don’t want to say too much. I’m scared that I’d get hurt. I’m too scared to write a lot of my personal opinion on tumblr because I’m afraid you’d know too much. I feel that I can’t let my guard down.

New changes .

Being in a new area and adjusting to a new lifestyle isn’t too bad. Well there’s barely no reception, hae no internet connection and no neighbours at all -.-

Oh and since I live in the new area, some people decide to come around in their cars, park it across from my house, and make out in the back seat. But they don’t get excited until the cops flash their lights on them. Just sayin’.

i worry to much

i'm worried about confiding myself and opening up to others; simply for the fact of betrayal and the loss of trust I have in people. I’m worried about getting too attached to someone, because when they leave, a piece of me will leave too. I’m worried about people getting to know me too well. I’m worried about judgment and confrontation. I’m worried about life in general; friendships/relationships, taking risks, new experiences. But whatever happens, I know that there will always be the same people who I can truly rely on to be there and look out for me .

— Leo Cruz - Make It Or Break It

i think people make mistakes, and they’re going to disappoint you, especially the people who love you the most. And if you can’t forgive them for not being perfect, you’re going to end up alone.

Truth Out ,

I’m not the most emotionally stable person at the moment. Who knows what’ll happen if something stuffs me up. I’m pushing people away, and I constantly emotionally hurt myself. When I’m around people that love me, all my drama goes away. Nothing matters except that moment and the people stuck in the moment with me. Right now, I’m lost for words whenever I try to write about my life. It’s one big illusion, everything looks in perfect condition; but it’s not. Everything’s falling apart. I myself don’t understand why it’s all happening but it is.
Nowadays, I’m constantly doubting myself. Wishing I was a better person or pretty like that girl or talented and smart like that girl. I’m losing faith in myself and I really don’t like it. I’m struggling to get back on my feet even with the people helping me up. I honestly am not happy with who I am.
I don’t like nor enjoy my life at the moment. But one thing’s for sure, everything that has happened is for a reason and things will get better.
That’s all for now,

FIEFYY

them :)

It’s those people who bring smiles to your face the split second you see them. It’s those people that constantly make you laugh whenever you’re around them. It’s those people that have your back when everything goes wrong. It’s those people that keep you sane. It’s those people that put you back on track when you’re losing your way. It’s those people who wipe the tears from your eyes. It’s those people who you can talk to for days, even hours and never get sick of them. It’s those people who you don’t realise are the best things in your life until they’re gone. It’s those people who It’s those people that automatically choose to stay in your life without you asking them to.
It’s those people that you should never neglect, because you’ll feel empty without them. It’s those people just like that, that you should keep in your life. Anything less than that, ain’t worth it. Those people are called true friends (:

really ? :)

that awkward moment when you realize you’re recording when you meant to take a picture.

crying for this :"(

DAMN , I REALLY MISS THE TIME WE ARE TOGETHER :'(

You need to realise that I’m never going to be perfect.

I make mistakes. I’ll always make mistakes, I’m freaking human. But no matter what, I’ll always try my best to learn from my mistakes. I’m never going to be the smartest person there is, the most beautiful girl there is, the most amazing singer nor the best dancer that ever lived. I don’t want to be all of those things. One of them would be nice, but not all. So, that I actually have to strive and work hard for those things later on in life. To be honest, I don’t want to be perfect. It would be pretty boring. Flaws and imperfections make me who I am and not some robot. I’m happy with who I am, and if you can’t understand that, then you don’t understand me.

Justin Bieber - Pray ;)

this song make me better :')

Take a walk in my shoes .

Sometimes, I really hate telling people about my problems. There’s no point, because they don’t understand what I’m going through. Even if they try to comfort me, it only goes so far. I especially hate when I thoroughly explain to them, and they say “oh, it’s okay.” No, it’s fucking not okay. Take a walk in my shoes and you won’t even fully understand. When the same shit happens to you, then you’ll know and you’ll see if it’s still “okay”.

I didn’t walk into your life by accident,

because in this world there are no such things as accidents. Truth is, everything has a purpose

Don’t make promises you don’t intend to keep.

And even in that moment of the slightest doubt, don’t. Your actions will forever speak louder than your words, if your actions do not match up to your speech

because you brighten up my dayyyy :(

Everyday, you catch my eye.
And everyday, you’re on my mind.
And I think back to when i first said “h , thanks fer the add”.
You’ve got me fantasizing what you and I could be.
Every night, I just can’t sleep because my heart is still fluttering from the memories.
I want you to know how I feel,
But I can’t seem to get the words out my mouth

i don't hate people

I don’t think I could ever hate people. Hate is too a strong word, just like love. It hurts when someone says “I hate you”. No matter what people to you, whether it be a mistake or on purpose, they’re going to change. You can’t hate someone due to that one small thing they did to you.
So I don’t hate someone, I just have a respect level. And if they do something that’s not right or that was out of context, they lose some of the respect I have for them and their level goes down. But hey, there’s always room to gain respect again.

blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting

— Winston Churchill

courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen

i found a reason

I hope I would not need this sentence to reassure me even though there's a gaping hole in my heart that can't be filled up by anything and tears keep streaming down my face regardless of me saying "I don't care" over and over again.

I trust you not to put me through Purgatory :)

demit :(

I wish you would look past every
"It's okay, you can spend time with your friends, I won't disturb you."
"I'm fine, don't worry about me."
"It's okay, I know you're busy.
"It's okay, I was just wondering if you got my text."
"I'm fine, you can talk to me later."
"I'm fine, I'll just do something else while waiting."
"It's okay, I understand."

And realize that by that,
I do understand, it's just that I may want a liiittle more of your attention. Just a little bit more won't hurt right? And you know, if you show that you actually want to talk to me and made more effort in our conversations that would be cool, yeah :(