As soon as the year kicked off, my life had become too personal to be written down here. For that, I opted to get back to basic which is jotting them all down in a diary. Decisions, we come across them every waking hour. As most of you are already aware of, I ended my one week long relationship not long ago. Some may see it as an act of selfishness, while few prefer not to judge. He was an amazing boy, no doubt. But given time, anything can fade. Yes I agree that he has flaws, but that doesn't come close to being the reason why I ended things. I accepted his flaws because no one in this world is born flawless. And no, it wasn't because of any fights. We barely had any misunderstandings. It was a smooth ride for a whole one week, but things changed after that. He got caught up with something and we started falling apart slowly but surely. It felt like I barely know him, he had become a stranger. He wasn't the same boy that I took a week to fall in love with. Although he was far away, that didn't mean he stopped loving me. Yes, I get that. It was me who fell out of love. That may have sounded selfish, but I don't expect anyone to understand why I threw away a week just like that. People have their own ways in looking at things, that is something I don't have the power nor the strength to change. So I'll let you judge all you want because it doesn't matter, no one would understand unless they've been in my shoes. I'm not asking for sympathy, neither am I asking you to side me. What I've learnt from all of this is that, hurting someone hurts more than being hurt yourself. I'm still living in guilt for what I did to him. You don't just leave someone and not feel bad about it. I'm helping him to move on by carrying out his one and only favour, to stay as friends. I don't mind, because he surely is a great person and a good friend. Plus, I owe him that much. I would do anything to make things right again, although it doesn't include us getting back with each other. To let go doesn't mean to stop caring, because I still do care about him. Just not in the same way anymore. At the end of the day, I'm glad that we are in good terms and I can still call him, my friend.
Yours truly, ♥
can you help me unravel my latest mistake ?
Hello,
Times like this, I realize how much I miss writing. When I write, I shut down everything around me. At this point of time, that's the only thing that I need. To just shut down everything and ramble on to myself, and only myself. I don't want to pick up the pieces and move on, not just yet. I'm not done yet. I need to feel this pain, and perhaps carve it on my heart so that I know better the next time. Not that I wish that there will be a next time, but just in case life decides to be a bitch again. On a not so different note, my feelings are pretty much not balanced right now. How can I decide what I want when I don't even know what I want? Perhaps it doesn't make sense, but it does to me.
This might be goodbye for you, but not for me. Need I remind you that I am a pretty stubborn girl? I'm not ready to let go.
♥
sweet 16 is dangerous :P
*MY LATEST PICTURE :)
Some people say that at the age of 16,you should be partying like crazy, its true cause i did it with mi familia ♥ yeah,call me a noob or daddy's little girl or mummy's daughter,pocoyo, cause i ain't no care ;) ceh,poyo-nya,lol.
of course im gonna celebrate my lastday in kuala lumpur with my bestfriends but not now,cause i feel so incomplete,if any of us is missing, so,i decide to do it on the school holidays ends. it would be more fun if everyone can be with . i was 15,i think that everything is perfect, but i was wrong, well,life is a bitch,you gotta stand up by yourself, i did,i did.
i'm so thankful for having the awesome bestfriends, the cheerfull girlfriends, the spontaneous boyfriends, the love of my life,my family. you guys are everything i need :') im so grateful.
love, najieha<3
forever and always :)
well hello readers :)
i finally,finally realised who is my real or love, through thick and thin,yeahh so what i actually want to say is there is no such thing as 'BEST FRIENDS' , 'BFF' or 'we'll be couple like forever eventhough you're far away'
and lucky to me because i do have that kind of boyfriend, although sometimes,i act like a brat,a stupid blonde,a crying baby or an annoying bit*h he will always be there for me,even if i'm wrong about anything,
Dear Kim,if you're reading this, thank you for always be by my side and i hope this will continue for eternity,INSYAALLAH,
